In this emotionally candid contemporary YA, author Jen Malone delves into the world of a teen whose life is brought to an abrupt halt when she learns she's in dire need of an organ transplant.

Hard-charging and irrepressible, eighteen-year-old Amelia Linehan could see a roller derby opponent a mile away-and that's while crouched down, bent over skates, and zooming around a track at the speed of light.

What she couldn't see coming, however, was the flare-up of the rare liver disorder she was born with. But now it's the only thing she-and everyone around her-can think about.  

With no guarantee of a viable organ transplant, everything Amelia's been sure of-like college plans or the possibility of one day falling in love-has become a huge question mark, threatening to drag her down into a sea of what-ifs she's desperate to avoid.

Then a friend from the past shows up. With Will, it's easy to forget about what's lurking between the lightness of their time together. She feels alive when all signs point elsewhere.

But with the odds decidedly not in her favor, Amelia knows this feeling can't last forever. After all, what can?

• YA Books About Illness: Eighteen-year-old Amelia is a roller derby star first and a girl with a rare liver disorder second—until an on-track medical emergency puts her on the organ transplant waiting list.
• Friends to Lovers: When Will, a friend from her past, reappears, his presence is a welcome escape from the what-ifs. With him, she can almost forget the clock is ticking.
• Roller Derby Romance: Known as Rolldemort on the track, Amelia is used to charging through obstacles. But this is one fight she can’t win with sheer force of will.
• Coming of Age Story: With college, love, and her entire future hanging in the balance, Amelia must confront what it means to truly live when you don’t know how much time you have left.

“Malone frankly traces the changes in [her character’s] physical and psychological states in this meticulously researched, grimly realistic portrait of a teen living with terminal illness. Convincing, empathetic...touches of humor and hope.”